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"What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from." - T. S. Eliot The elements that had given shape to my life and  to which I had committed my all seem  insignificant now. Everything around appears so  fragile including relationships. Things change,  people leave. With the passage of time  everything that made sense in the past seem  derisory in their present form. Life's contrariness beguiles me. As I attempt to make sense in repose, the only  thing that strikes me is that there is something  wrong with reality. Is this an irreversible  phenomenon?  Today, I have reached a point where I question  everything. I seek answers and I seek them  aggressively. Eventually, life has to make  sense. Things have to fall in place. That's what  I am told..!! I definitely cannot reach the end  of my existential rope in this note without ...

What kind of world are we living in today..??!! It is more of illusion with a liberal dose of reality.  The mind creates a world of illusion. Once this is done, our thoughts change to adapt to this illusion and accept it  but what we forget is that reality resides within us and hence we start experiencing the conflicts that eventually becomes exacting on us. Even though, the  abstraction of illusion is only a fragment of our mind, it has an overpowering control on us since we let it handle, the handle bar of our life.  The World Wide Web has dwarfed the world. Google has an answer to almost everything. Today, anything and everything is within our possible reach from any corner of the world. Gadgets control our life and seem to extract from all of us, our time and money to such an extent that we, practically, live as an asocial in an e-World today. This world has undoubtedly reconnected us with old friends and...

Popular belief is that only the spoken Words are heard but if you really want to increase the effectiveness of your voice then Silence is the most powerful tool..!! As Margaret Weis rightfully says “Words can never fully say what we want them to say, for they fumble, stammer, and break the best porcelain. The best one can hope for is to find along the way someone to share the path, content to walk in silence, for the heart communes best when it does not try to speak.” More often we expect from the ones who matter to us a lot, to say it in Words what they mean to say just because we want to "hear" them for we believe that these words transform to feelings but in reality it is the profound enigmatic Silence in the company of true love and concern that evokes in us the feelings we so much yearn for. Only after one has used words as a medium and experienced it's limited power is one truly ready to experience and appreciate the unlimited power of silence. It takes a lo...

As Marriane Williamson eloquently says “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” Now, more than ever is the time to realize the potential of the POWER within us due to the rapid changes in the world and universe surrounding us. It's time to fac...

Oh! How I wish I could backtrack my steps before moving forward any more. Maybe not so much retrace, either, as relive but to set straight certain matters which I should have way back then. What if life could be controlled by a remote, then no understanding would have been required at all; it would just be a series of clicks ..?! As a realist, I know that I cannot backtrack for the rules of nature are not as such but I can certainly pause  the "NOW" to surmise and comprehend the situation that I have in hand for I'm feeling lost in the translation of understanding the dynamics of life (a journey, I embarked upon couple of years back). The realm of life is such a vast expanse that even the timeline of a lifetime seems hell short of coping up with the pace of time to make sense of the reality of reality. Come what may we can only learn life backwards and live it forwards. There are no rooms for making repetitive mistakes; either learn from the first time you erred o...

The surreal world, once an evolution has today morphed so well in our daily lives that we fail to realize that it has taken over our real life. Have you had to face situations where you had to save yourself with a smirk or a caustic smile and had the feeling that "What in the hell was that..?!! WEIRD... WTF". This has a lot to say about the socially conscious high tech surreal life, we are leading today which instead of advancing us has relegated us to becoming soulless bodies who seem to have an opinion on anything and everything about the universe. It is true there has been a rapid evolution in the environment around us, especially technology that seems to be growing at a rapid rate and sucking us in its gyre. Peer and social pressure compels us to match pace with its version of representation of what should be our world. Take for instance success of the likes of Facebook, Twitter n' its cult. YES, it has made the world appear a mere speck as against its...

10 days of bed rest, post a surgery, gave me the much needed breathing space and got me to tread the introspective path which I seldom find time for in the humdrum of the fast paced career-tracked life of Bombay (Yes, I still belong to the rapidly diminishing cult of those who choose to refer to this city by its former name!). We all dream as we grow. Dream of what we wanna do, what life we wanna lead, the hobbies/interests/aspirations we wanna pursue, the soul mate we seek, et al. But, how many of us do really strive to make these dreams come true? I, too, had mine, but somewhere en route this journey of life, I lost it, where is something, I am yet to figure out..!! But, one thing is for sure, we have conditioned ourselves today to become someone we are not. We blame it on everything but us (or our own decisions); experience, reality, destiny n' all the crap. Crudely speaking, it is mere bull shit..!! It is we who stopped pursuing our dreams leaving it for a tomorrow th...

It is November and the rains continue to pour in Bombay ever since the onset of the rainy season in June. In the last three decades of my life, I have never seen this happen. Not having had to go through the October heat has been a definite blessing in disguise. The weather is so pleasant, the smell of wet earth, thrilling and the eerie calmness, exciting; words fall short while expressing this splendour of Mother Nature. I can't say this for others but I certainly feel intoxicated with life when I am enveloped in an atmosphere as such! It brings out the child-woman within me who breaks herself free of all worldy bonds and feels one with herself. If only, we all could live life so peacefully without having to be tied down with materialism, relationships and other worldy sighs. As Ayn Rand, rightfully questioned "So you think that money is the root of all evil. Have you ever asked what is the root of all money?". I am not too sure if there are any real answers to sam...