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Dealing with Past..!!

We live in a world in which we're forever juggling demands, but rarely focusing on any one thing for long. Yet, in this very demanding world, very often we come face to face with our past, we find ourselves incapable of overcoming it, leave alone managing to deal with it.

Aaaahh... the quintessential PAST!
We are rarely able to overcome our past no matter how much you try. You either get engulfed in it's emotions or try to ignore by putting it behind you (albeit unsuccessfully!) or casting aside. To keep oneself in the present is a huge challenge and should be undertaken. Of course, the success of such an undertaking is not really guaranteed. Nevertheless, it's a sure step ahead then being lost, rooted and left behind.

Mood swings is a totally different beast altogether. My friend mentioned about having read the works of a few people who suffer from extreme depression and mood swings but are also reasonably intelligent to think about their illness being aware about it in their split conscious phase. I could very well ingest the depth of what he was referring to for I happen to fall in the same calibre.

Over the last few years, I have firmly accepted the fact that I am prone to mood swings and depression. I make it a point to mask myself at work so that it doesn't affect my work responsibilities and deliverables. It is indeed striking to observe the fact that inspite of having this weakness; I have carved a niche for myself when it comes to my career taking some real high risks and reaping through it. My career highlights have occurred in this very span of time. Basically, I have been able to be my productive best when I have chosen to!

The reason why I am sharing this with you all is that we all go through this phase but it is how we choose to deal with it that decides the road ahead for us. There are many people out there going through the same grind. Falling into a dark and bottomless pit is much easily tolerated when you know there are others who suffer the same fate.

Accepting is the first BIG step. Absorbed attention — the capacity to delay other gratifications to focus on one goal at a time — is the mantra of achieving and sustaining anything. By being aware of my inclination to overuse a strength — by recognizing my own vulnerability — I was able to make a different choice. So will you..!!

Zendagi Migzara...

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@+u£ said…
well written Ash !!

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