After having seen a lot of ups and downs in my life with some unusually strange incidents; I had decided to burn all the bridges behind me after I had crossed them as I wanted to move on in life. Keeping the bridges alive felt like being chained to my past. I did not want my past to make me a bitter person. With great difficulty and after a lot of sheer conviction; I took the final call and moved on in life. Sieving the good memories from the chaffed ones brought in freedom from pain and this helped me a lot.
Life has been a roller coaster ride and that too a fast paced one off lately but with every passing moment, I am learning the meaning of the finer nuances of life. Earlier, I used to shudder confusing every tiny part to be the whole but not anymore (Half knowledge can be deadly!!). Maybe, that's the role TIME plays in our lives. It brings in with it maturity and an entirely different approach towards life. A recent conversation with a close one sprung back a piece of my past unknown to me. Having burned the bridges; I did not know how to handle this piece of reality. It started with a nudge and I did not realize how soon it had snow balled enough to have my complete attention to it. Unknowingly, I had given it the power to control me which further impacted my once stable life. Whether I wanted it or not, this new piece of information from my past had clung onto me like leech. Memories of past resurfaced and reeled before me making me feel very low and reminiscing me of incidents slain. What was the point then in burning the bridges behind if the connection still persisted..?? Since it belonged to my past there was nothing I could do to undo it. It was just that I was ignorant about it and yes it did feel blissful to have been ignorant so long. If I had known it back then; maybe I would be on different course of life altogether but destiny had something else destined for me. If this piece of information has been unveiled to me now; maybe I am ripe enough today to deal with it - not immediately but certainly in due course of time.
It took me long to realize that though I had moved on, few incidents from the past have left indelible emotional scars in me and that these scars might never heal. Come what may..!!
Next time, you see your past catching up with you, know that it is only because you're ripe for same..!!
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