Footprints in the sands of time

My mind wants to interpret the dreams that are mine;

I want to fulfill these dreams that are mine..!!

I am a dreamy eyed girl who set foot on my journey after my education, almost 2 decades back to create a mark of her own. My own signature identity as I call it..!!

At the onset of the journey, I was surprised initially to discover, how little I knew of my strengths n' weaknesses and of the different facets of life, how much unknown I was to what I wanted to do with my life, how clueless I was about my destination and which road to take, I did not know whether what I was seeing was a reflection or a mirage; all I knew was that I had the had to move on and I had the unwavering will in my stride to create an identity for me. Initially, I accepted things at their face value and treated them as gospel only to face the consequences at a later stage. En route the journey, I learnt to value reality checks and dared to be real in a world of pretence. I accepted life in its true form instead of living in the delusions of a surreal world. I have seen it all n' done it all having been through most of the forms of crisis n' windfall. I have been euphoric whenever I have reached the zeniths and have wavered n' been crest fallen whenever I reached the nadirs only to bounce back with renewed vigor after a period of dormancy. Time has played a perennially instrumental role n' healed me many-a-times.

In interludes, I have had some people whom I call as 'travelers' in my life who held me when I was falling n' guided me through the dark tunnels till we found light together. They left when their deed was done. Their departure hurt but their footprints left an indelible imprint in my heart. I was never the same after having been with them. Every such brief encounter has only helped me evolve discovering each time, a new facet within me which I was unaware of even though it was present within me all the while. After having understood the role and importance of 'travelers' in lives; I continued the tradition and played similar role in few other lives who needed me at that juncture of their life and left when I felt I had fulfilled my role and it was time to move on. Easier said than done but that's the way of life..!!

The dogmas of life have always forced me to break all set limits to rise above the situation to survive. It's said with age comes maturity. Same has been with me. The deeper realizations on the finer nuances of life, the importance of relations, the understanding of how crucial it is to handle feelings effectively, the spirit to reach the goals set in life and realize my dreams, the ability to provide for my family the very best that life has to offer and enjoy every moment of life to the fullest have changed the dimensions of my life altogether.

Life, indeed, is a mysterious intriguing journey which tests your endurance limits and wherewithal where living is not as easy as "breathe in - breathe out". You learn the meaning of life only when you connect the dots, define the "I" in you and when you have made sense of it all, you start living every moment of your life to the fullest in its true essence.

I have learnt that...

• your family is of utmost importance to you

• you find happiness in giving

• there is immense power in selfless love

• you need to pause at times to make sense in repose

• you've to spread seeds of bliss wherever you go

• you've to hold hands of those who reach out to you

• you've to reach out within you to find your true calling

• you've to set yourself FREE from all binds to be the real you

I, fervently hope that with the blessed insights and the wisdom that I have gained over time in pursuit of defining "ME"; when I reach the end point of my life, I should feel content from deep within having realized most of my dreams, nurtured my family with absolute dedication, experienced true FREEDOM and touched a few souls having taught them to believe in themselves...to learn from life... to realize their dreams... to be 'travelers' when reached out to... to nurture the unprotected... to love unconditionally...

When I'm done with my lifetime here, I want to be remembered by my close ones as, " She believed immensely in the power of Nature and knew when to rend and when to sew. No matter what the seasons of life brought, she never changed inside. She never allowed the pressures of the seasons or the weathers of life to change what she was underneath. She was a mountain you could rely on to watch over those who looked up to her."

Even if they are sublime, even if they get erased with time, I want to leave behind my footprints in the sands of time...